I’m tired. Right now I am a bit worn out. I have been pushing hard to be better, do better and get more things done. And I have succeeded in some ways. Fortunately we’ll be taking a break soon and spending some time recharging.

Maybe I push myself too hard and put too high an expectation on myself, but right now I struggle to see alternatives. I would rather push myself to be better, push myself to my limits rather than settle for a lesser win. I want to give more of myself away, touch more peoples lives, create a better life for my family. I have to keep pushing, pushing to break through my own barriers and to give my own art to the world.

On the other hand I might just be pig-headed, and thick skulled – bumping my head needlessly instead of finding smarter ways forward. Right now I don’t have any alternatives, so I’m just going to keep pushing and taking breaks when I really need to.