Recently this word “enough” has been popping up in conversations, cards and my thoughts. Grace wrote in my Mother’s day card that being her mom was enough. In a recent chat with Duncan he asked me “when am I going to be okay with me?”

I think for most of my life I have been seeking meaning, purpose in my identity, purpose in my work, a sense of “I have arrived” I have definitely found purpose over the years, and experienced “I am good enough moments” but they have always been fleeting, leaving a sense of wanting in me, a void.

I ponder this void, this need, is this only something that can be filled by God, does this purpose get met by serving others, finding satisfying work or is this only something that can be fulfilled when I love me completely and realise that I am enough as me?

There is a song I often listen to called “Dream Small” by Josh Wilson. The chorus definitely resonates in me “Dream small, don’t buy the lie you’ve gotta do it all. Just let Jesus use you where you are, one day at a time, dream small” In truth this is what I long for, to choose to love myself completely and then to daily choose to work on the small dreams.